Bedtimes, Budgets,& babies...oh my.

Bedtimes, Budgets & Babies...OH MY

So I haven't been sleeping well.  The parade of cop cars last week didn't help. 9 cars impromptu disco tech waking up my dogs and then waking up me.  I guess there are some perks to living in the wilderness off the grid.

Being married for more than a year I can tell you  I am by no means an expert.

I lived with my husband for sometime before we married (gasp- my apologies to my grandma) and since he first moved in the one thing that has changed is bedtime.  I used to go to bed at the earliest 10.  I didn't head to bed till I was dead-tired to the world.  When I added a new permanent body to the bed I had to make more room in the queen bed for more than just the queen.

My husband who slept alone for more years than myself spread out taking up all the real estate in slumberland unless I went to be with him when he went to crash.  His usual time to hibernate 7 PM.  Not an easy time for me to sleep.

But we have made concessions unless the circumstances (i.e. early morning work) were in need of 7pm sleep time.  He adjusted and went to be at 8 sometimes 8:30 I would go to be with him even if I wasn't tired.  I would read or watch a movie.  By hitting the pillow early I'd be more apt to get sleepy sooner: As well as Chris would know there was someone else in the bed.  Thus preventing him from spreading out like some prima ballerina ready to do plies

Something that we are still working on but not worrying so hard about or trying not to.  Finances

Well... I am lying

Money worries are occupying every waking moment of my day..

The date is April19th.  I am feeling crazy.  Coming up on being post thyroid surgery for a year.  I have been married for almost 2 years.  Been out of college more than 3 years and I still don't understand myself.  I am 30 years old married to the love of my life and certain about my identity.  I am wife but who else am I.  My angry mother in law when I barely talk to her she reminds me "when are you going to start giving her grandbabies?"  I want to be healthy before I partake in procreation.  My thyroid levels are still in the toilet and I would like to be healthy before I even consider babies.  So as I work at Home Depot and see these super cute kids and pray for naughty ones to come through to kill the baby fever.

Well well.  I am Liza whoever that is.  I am wife and unfortunately I am still confused.